This is one of the hardest times of the year for me. It seems like my life is never good enough, and I don't ever have enough for anything around this time of year. I know my life is good, yes I have issues, and yes I have problems, but I'll figure out some way to deal with them. I just need some help to make it through the next week.
Christmas and being alone is one of the hardest things ever, having grown up in a family where everyone came together on Christmas (regardless of whether you were fighting) was kind of nice, and it seemed like we always had enough to get something for everyone.
My question, and yes I'm whining again, is when will my life turn around and I can start doing the things I need to do to make me happy? I know that having "things" don't really make you happy, but honestly having enough to get by would be nice, having enough to not worry about someone else knocking on your door would be nice as well. I'm not asking anyone to solve my issues and poof make me rich, that's not an answer, but help to get caught up would be nice. I know how much it would take, I've sent that picture out to the universe....now universe, a little help please.....let this next year be the one where my life turns around, where I finally have enough to not be stressed all the time, and let me learn to live on what I have and be grateful for it, and not have to worry about those calls or knocks or anything like that.
There I've said it....let's see what happens.
Sunday, December 23, 2012
Sunday, December 9, 2012
Life of a High School Drama Teacher part 2
Ok this is a continuation of the post I made last week. Today I kicked someone out of the show (actually I made up my mind on Friday) I'm done with it, I'm done with the lies to me, and the lies to his mom. I need him to graduate, not be my friend. So time to move on.
Now that's over...Being a teacher is hard sometimes....and mostly it's the money issues....I'm putting it out to the universe....HELP!!! I need to be able to survive, I need to be able to pay my bills, I need to be able to live...I'm 49 freaking years old and I don't have much to show for my life, except for my job, and my kids, and the program I've created....but I'd like to be able to at least not worry about how my bills are getting paid.
The administration in my district is a quandry...it seems to me that they single me out because I'm popular, because I promote my program. Should I keep quiet, should I not try to get the kids all the stuff they're capable of getting, or deserve? This is a problem I'm going to dwell on this week, and post more about later.
Again, don't get me wrong, I love my job, I do...but could someone please help ME? with my life?
Now that's over...Being a teacher is hard sometimes....and mostly it's the money issues....I'm putting it out to the universe....HELP!!! I need to be able to survive, I need to be able to pay my bills, I need to be able to live...I'm 49 freaking years old and I don't have much to show for my life, except for my job, and my kids, and the program I've created....but I'd like to be able to at least not worry about how my bills are getting paid.
The administration in my district is a quandry...it seems to me that they single me out because I'm popular, because I promote my program. Should I keep quiet, should I not try to get the kids all the stuff they're capable of getting, or deserve? This is a problem I'm going to dwell on this week, and post more about later.
Again, don't get me wrong, I love my job, I do...but could someone please help ME? with my life?
Sunday, December 2, 2012
Life of A High School Drama Teacher
Don't get me wrong, I love my job. But along with teaching and directing and coaching, I also get to be a confessor, counselor, gradechecker and all around nice guy. "What do you mean you want me to graduate??? Oh that's a thing"
I'm tired, I'm tired of all the crap I get because I try to do what's best for the kids, I'm tired of the crap I get from the kids because I try to do something good for them, like get them into college. I know I should let them live their lives, but really most of them don't have a flipping clue about how to survive in the real world.
I recently found out that one of my former students who is amazingly talented is thinking of staying at his 2 year college for another year because he wants to do a show again (one we did in high school). He's not telling me this, because he knows what I'd say, MOVE ON, It's time. Say goodbye to the town you can't stand and go on to a 4 year school. Or better yet, get off your but and apply for the internship that you possibly could get and move to New York. (but I can't say that to them, I'm not their parents)
This blog was created just for this reason, so I can talk honestly about my feelings, and right now as I said I'm tired.....It's ok that Mr. C doesn't have a personal life, he's here at the school. Mr. C doesn't get sick, he deals with it.....ahhhhhhhh I don't think I signed up to be at the school 24/7 and not get a thank you even.
But then when I feel like that I have one kid who suprises me, and then it becomes worth it again.....ahhh the life of a teacher...ain't it a blast?
I'm tired, I'm tired of all the crap I get because I try to do what's best for the kids, I'm tired of the crap I get from the kids because I try to do something good for them, like get them into college. I know I should let them live their lives, but really most of them don't have a flipping clue about how to survive in the real world.
I recently found out that one of my former students who is amazingly talented is thinking of staying at his 2 year college for another year because he wants to do a show again (one we did in high school). He's not telling me this, because he knows what I'd say, MOVE ON, It's time. Say goodbye to the town you can't stand and go on to a 4 year school. Or better yet, get off your but and apply for the internship that you possibly could get and move to New York. (but I can't say that to them, I'm not their parents)
This blog was created just for this reason, so I can talk honestly about my feelings, and right now as I said I'm tired.....It's ok that Mr. C doesn't have a personal life, he's here at the school. Mr. C doesn't get sick, he deals with it.....ahhhhhhhh I don't think I signed up to be at the school 24/7 and not get a thank you even.
But then when I feel like that I have one kid who suprises me, and then it becomes worth it again.....ahhh the life of a teacher...ain't it a blast?
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Some Call it a Beginning
I've been told to blog, I've thought about it, and after the week I've had I decided to put it into motion (or down on paper....you choose). This is me, it's not perfect, if you're expecting that...look to another blogger.
How I got here:
In 1997 I was living in Bellingham, Washington. I had lived there all my life, both of my parents were still alive, and I had an ok life. I was very active in the Theatre community up there, and had a decent job, and a great group of friends, but something was missing. When that realization came, I had 2 job offers sitting on the table. 1 in Baltimore, MD and 1 in Salt Lake City UT. I chose UT, my friends thought I was crazy, "There's Mormon's There!" I hated to tell them, but there's Mormon's everywhere, and most of them are nice, honest people just like you and me.
So in August of 1997 I moved to Salt Lake City, and started working as an accountant (again) in a hotel (again) and had a few fun years, I switched to another hotel after a couple of years and then a restaurant when that hotel went through bankruptcy. But finally I was 42 and hated my life, hated getting up in the morning, and hated everything about everything I was doing. I decided that Theatre had always been a huge part of my life, so I decided to share my love of it. I went back to school (U of U) and became a Theatre Teacher.
Have I told you I love my Job? Well I do, I love everything about it. Every single annoying nitpicky parent who complains, every student who has an issue, every moment of every day. I go home exhausted sometimes, but I think to myself. "I get to play everyday, what can be better?" All it takes is one Student who gets it, and you see it in their eyes, and it's so worth it. One parent who thanks you for helping their kid break out of their shell, or the gleam in someones smile when they collect their award at region or state.
If you're a teacher, and you're not doing this for your students, my suggestion---find a new job. You won't get rich, you'll be overworked, and if you're like me, you'll be paying off student loans until the day you die....:>
This Blog will deal with my everyday musings, and observations, names won't be mentioned, (or changed if they are) If you are offended by something I say, I'm sorry you're offended, but I reserve the right to say it. I'm not planning on advertising this blog...it's for me, if you've stumbled upon it, thanks for reading.
more to come.....
How I got here:
In 1997 I was living in Bellingham, Washington. I had lived there all my life, both of my parents were still alive, and I had an ok life. I was very active in the Theatre community up there, and had a decent job, and a great group of friends, but something was missing. When that realization came, I had 2 job offers sitting on the table. 1 in Baltimore, MD and 1 in Salt Lake City UT. I chose UT, my friends thought I was crazy, "There's Mormon's There!" I hated to tell them, but there's Mormon's everywhere, and most of them are nice, honest people just like you and me.
So in August of 1997 I moved to Salt Lake City, and started working as an accountant (again) in a hotel (again) and had a few fun years, I switched to another hotel after a couple of years and then a restaurant when that hotel went through bankruptcy. But finally I was 42 and hated my life, hated getting up in the morning, and hated everything about everything I was doing. I decided that Theatre had always been a huge part of my life, so I decided to share my love of it. I went back to school (U of U) and became a Theatre Teacher.
Have I told you I love my Job? Well I do, I love everything about it. Every single annoying nitpicky parent who complains, every student who has an issue, every moment of every day. I go home exhausted sometimes, but I think to myself. "I get to play everyday, what can be better?" All it takes is one Student who gets it, and you see it in their eyes, and it's so worth it. One parent who thanks you for helping their kid break out of their shell, or the gleam in someones smile when they collect their award at region or state.
If you're a teacher, and you're not doing this for your students, my suggestion---find a new job. You won't get rich, you'll be overworked, and if you're like me, you'll be paying off student loans until the day you die....:>
This Blog will deal with my everyday musings, and observations, names won't be mentioned, (or changed if they are) If you are offended by something I say, I'm sorry you're offended, but I reserve the right to say it. I'm not planning on advertising this blog...it's for me, if you've stumbled upon it, thanks for reading.
more to come.....
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