Christmas

This is one of the hardest times of the year for me.  It seems like my life is never good enough, and I don't ever have enough for anything around this time of year.  I know my life is good, yes I have issues, and yes I have problems, but I'll figure out some way to deal with them.  I just need some help to make it through the next week. 

Christmas and being alone is one of the hardest things ever, having grown up in a family where everyone came together on Christmas (regardless of whether you were fighting) was kind of nice, and it seemed like we always had enough to get something for everyone. 

My question, and yes I'm whining again, is when will my life turn around and I can start doing the things I need to do to make me happy?  I know that having "things" don't really make you happy, but honestly having enough to get by would be nice, having enough to not worry about someone else knocking on your door would be nice as well.  I'm not asking anyone to solve my issues and poof make me rich, that's not an answer, but help to get caught up would be nice.  I know how much it would take, I've sent that picture out to the universe....now universe, a little help please.....let this next year be the one where my life turns around, where I finally have enough to not be stressed all the time, and let me learn to live on what I have and be grateful for it, and not have to worry about those calls or knocks or anything like that.

There I've said it....let's see what happens.

Life of a High School Drama Teacher part 2

Ok this is a continuation of the post I made last week.  Today I kicked someone out of the show (actually I made up my mind on Friday)  I'm done with it, I'm done with the lies to me, and the lies to his mom.  I need him to graduate, not be my friend.  So time to move on. 

Now that's over...Being a teacher is hard sometimes....and mostly it's the money issues....I'm putting it out to the universe....HELP!!!  I need to be able to survive, I need to be able to pay my bills, I need to be able to live...I'm 49 freaking years old and I don't have much to show for my life, except for my job, and my kids, and the program I've created....but I'd like to be able to at least not worry about how my bills are getting paid.

The administration in my district is a quandry...it seems to me that they single me out because I'm popular, because I promote my program.  Should I keep quiet, should I not try to get the kids all the stuff they're capable of getting, or deserve?  This is a problem I'm going to dwell on this week, and post more about later. 

Again, don't get me wrong, I love my job, I do...but could someone please help ME? with my life?

Life of A High School Drama Teacher

Don't get me wrong, I love my job.  But along with teaching and directing and coaching, I also get to be a confessor, counselor, gradechecker and all around nice guy.  "What do you mean you want me to graduate???  Oh that's a thing" 

I'm tired, I'm tired of all the crap I get because I try to do what's best for the kids, I'm tired of the crap I get from the kids because I try to do something good for them, like get them into college.  I know I should let them live their lives, but really most of them don't have a flipping clue about how to survive in the real world. 

I recently found out that one of my former students who is amazingly talented is thinking of staying at his 2 year college for another year because he wants to do a show again (one we did in high school).  He's not telling me this, because he knows what I'd say, MOVE ON, It's time.  Say goodbye to the town you can't stand and go on to a 4 year school.  Or better yet, get off your but and apply for the internship that you possibly could get and move to New York.  (but I can't say that to them, I'm not their parents) 

This blog was created just for this reason, so I can talk honestly about my feelings, and right now as I said I'm tired.....It's ok that Mr. C doesn't have a personal life, he's here at the school.  Mr. C doesn't get sick, he deals with it.....ahhhhhhhh I don't think I signed up to be at the school 24/7 and not get a thank you even.

But then when I feel like that I have one kid who suprises me, and then it becomes worth it again.....ahhh the life of a teacher...ain't it a blast?